A
land has its own thought-waves pulsating in every particle,
and in India’s case, century after century of seekers
contemplating, pursuing, and struggling to reach the Highest
has left an indelible pattern in the land and its people.
No amount of cell phone traffic, or IT development seems to
be able to erase this powerful tendency to view life as essentially
a spiritual phenomenon. Thank God!
It
has been my experience that living in India is pure struggle
until I learned the right balance between laughing at the
way things are, and standing up for what I believe. Knowing
which attitude to adopt when was the key! It took me many
sessions of trial and error, until this India-specific instinct
was honed.
Until
I reached that state, an endless array of details bothered
me – “Why is that guy driving on the wrong side
of the street?” “Why is the electricity always
cut just as I’m about to send a long email I just finished
writing?” “The train is how many hours
late?” “Why do I have to stand in this God-awful
line to pay my electricity bills? Oh my God, that
guy just elbowed his way in front of me!” and on and
on
But
one day, as I was riding my “giri-walli cycle”
(translation: a bicycle with multiple gears – a rarity
in India, apparently) around “The Lakhota Lake”
(actually a pond, to be technical) in the small Gujarati town
where I live, I had an epiphany.
Well,
maybe that’s too dramatic a word. But the sunset was
on the horizon, and the orange rays danced on the murky pond-waves,
and bathed everything – the medieval fort, the cotton-candy
sellers, the old turbaned men who just hang out there smoking
their beedis, the beggar children, the donkeys and cows...and
the wind was mild with dust particles sparkling in the sun.
Near by, from the Hanuman Temple (famous for its 24 hour chanting),
the ceaseless drums and cymbals accompanied the “Shri
Ram, Jay Ram, Jay Jay Ram” chant.
It
was simply a flash of understanding that came with the orange
sun, the dusty wind, the chanting voices – that I, nobody
else, was responsible for my happiness, and that a state of
being was available to me where I can embrace everything –
including myself – with love and good humor. Everything
had its own unique logic, and I was part of the equation of
Totality.
India
was teaching me to walk the razor’s edge between being
open and surrendering to what is, and claiming my essential
identity. The mystery of when to surrender and when to be
firm and assertive became much clearer as I continued to ask
myself, “ What is conducive to my growth?” and
“What is in the highest good for all concerned?”
From
that day on, things seemed much easier. Traffic continued
to be crazy as ever, the electricity cuts were still a regular
occurrence, trains were still late, but I felt buoyant, and
there seemed to be a sparkle of joy in my daily existence.
Of
course, these obstacles, experiences, and insights can happen
anywhere, not just in India. But I am grateful to India for
being such a persistent, in-the-face teacher who wouldn’t
let go until I got the lesson!
She
is also incredibly soft and compassionate at times, like the
Indian mothers who cheerfully treated me as though I were
her own daughter; like the sadhus whose deep eyes
penetrate your being and ignite an ancient longing to know
That.
All
Indian mothers that I’ve met are give-aholics, and Mother
India is no exception. But be ware! She will test you first
to see if you are worthy. Her most precious gifts, I’ve
discovered, require a subtle eye to see past the chaos, an
open, patient heart, and the courage to be changed by Her.
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